My girls inspire me

fourteen. That is the average age of the 15 girls in my small group. Each Tuesday I leave the church more in love with this amazing group of young women. As of tonight we kick started our Haiti formula fundraiser, and one of my girls told me she was donating half of he monthly allowance towards helping children she doesn't even know. This same girl I have seen change over the past year since she joined our group. This young lady inspires me. Last week we had a discussion night at the local coffee shop about christian dating, we didn't even get through my devotion I brought with me. It was an amazing night to see their views on dating, sex, and many other topics they brought up themselves. While talking about their parents rules one girl told us about a devotional book her and her father are going through and that she is going to waiting  to court when she is 20. Every week these girls give me strength and inspiration and I could go on forever about them.

It's kind of hard

I still haven't come to terms with not going to Haiti now. It's been about a week since every one kind of bailed on me. But I guess I can see where they are all coming from between disease, and and being very unstable right now, both structurally and politically. I miss the country and feel very helpless sitting here, watching and reading what it going on down there. But I am doing what I can from here (insert shameless advertising here) I am, with my mom, organizing a benefit concert on Feb 12, and just making people aware of what is really going on. But I am going to concentrate on school doing both summer semesters, and just going full force, so I can get my teaching degree on time, and one day be of use to the new generation of Haiti, to teach them how to be super amazing and independent and to be strong. Also to better the country for their own children. That is now how I am looking at this earthquake, as a hidden blessing, a chance for a whole country to start new. They, the Haitian, are going to into this year blind now not knowing what is going to happen, much like I am going into this year. 

Praying

I have always struggled with praying. I either a- get lost and wander on to some other thought, or b-start rambling and lose my train of thought when I'm praying in a large group. But this past week, I feel God has taught me how to truly pray. I have never prayed so hard, and so concentrated in my life. About life, and my own family experiences that we are going through right now, but mainly for Haiti, and not just the missionaries that are there, but the people that live there, that have to face disaster after disaster, and struggle day to day enough, and also for the children that have families waiting for them in other countries, i do not want to refer to them as orphans because they do have families waiting for them, and also for the thousands of others that have now lost their families. Because of this awful tragedy God has taught me how to pray.

Still processing...

Wow, its been a long week. I didn't think the earth quake in Haiti would effect me as it did. I have gone through a wide range of emotions since i found out about it last Tuesday night. Jeremy called me over to where he and Travis as well as another lady from the church we talking, and told me what had happened, all  could think about were Chris and Leslie Rolling  and their two year old Olivia, Troy and Tara Livesay with tribe ranging in age from 2-15 years old, and Lori, Licia, their own children plus all the children in their care at the rescue center. The next day Travis told me he had never seen me go so pale, looked so shocked, and gap out, when I was told what happened. The Tuesday night we prayed before all the leaders left, and all I could do is to go home and make sure everyone is okay. Wednesday morning I was watching CNN, and for some reason became enraged on how they were reporting the story,  saying how Haiti now needed things they have always needed, food, water and medicine. That day as I constantly checked the news, blogs and Troy tweets, I felt helpless, wanting, needing to be there to help, That night I did not sleep, there was just too much going on. Next day Tara's comment on her blog put me at ease, I would be useless right now, I can't give medical attention nor speak creole. But I did all I could through facebook encouraging people to pray their hearts out. I have prayed my soul and heart out, and am now, with my mother, organizing a concert benefit to raise money to help people, I love who are working hard there, for a beautiful country with even more beautiful people, helping the only way I can. I am still going in June, though I have been called crazy for thinking of even going, because I am needed even more now than I was before. Please Pray for the people of Haiti, the missionaries that are working hard, who are mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausted, pray for relief and that they can find a way to get the aid for to those who need it, pray for those who have lost loved one, or those that may never be able to find if they have, pray for the newly orphaned children both young and old, pray for the adoption process that after this event the government will see the need to speed it up, pray for those children that are slowly being able to go home, pray for Kristen and Mark Howerton and that they can bring Keembert home, after having to leave him behind, pray for Annie and Pheobie and that they can join their siblings and cousins and parents in the USA, and pray for Amos, as his sister cam home to the hand of Jamie and Aaron Ivey, and that he can join his siblings soon, and finally pray that God will rebuild the country of Haiti.

kinda sad...

Well first bump in the road to haiti... we cant go to the rescue centre, they already have a group there, but that isnt stopping us, hoping to go somewhere else, maybe to the capital port-au-prince!

Hello world...

This is it, I'm making it real. I am going to Haiti, in June. Dates, who know? Who's actually going, still working on that part, but all that matters is that I am going, and while there I am going to be doing amazing things with amazing people. For me on that end things are rolling, my family is with me 110% at least, and all I have to work on is the money part, that is where I need a strong amount of prayer and financial support. Support letters are going out at the end of the month (cross fingers), and lots of prayer. Its going to be a great year. I'm getting ready, I'm getting set, and I am going to go...